I'm beginning to listen to Christian songs again. I was scanning thru Jia Cheng's iTouch at Cell Group that day and came across all the songs I used to love. Like those from Hillsong, Delirious?, Newsboys. haha. I recalled the time that they came to CHC. I loved the services so much. I jumped up and down like a crazy person that time. With Isabelle, I think. Yeah.

So suddenly felt like seeing Michael. He grew so much in the cell in the year that I've not been there.

Hai, must wait until Aug then can see Xiufeng. I duno if Belle coming not. I hope so, though, I really miss them.

Tonight Chris has duty again =.= but thank God tomorrow is SAF day, meaning he can end a few hours before normal. I duno why I'm so lucky with regards to his army. Its because of me and of course his work that he fought so hard to get into Pes E. I know he was really thinking of me. I couldnt even spend 6 days without him the time he went to China for work. I was crying and begging him to come home on the first night already. I even thought of flying over. I zoned out and lay on the couch for that whole week and didnt go to office till he came home.

My mom even found me ridiculous. She kept saying that she could survive 2 years without my dad, why couldnt I for just a week.

So imagine if he'd gotten into Pes A, with 3 month stay-in and consequently weekday stay-in. I think I would have died waiting for him to come out lol.

Yes, I know its not healthy. But how am I supposed to change the way I miss him so much. Maybe its because I have too much time on my hands.

I'm thankful for headphones. Almost every night an argument breaks out between her and her. And its those kinda arguments that their voices just drill right into your brains and numb your heart and you just feel like pulling your arm off just to have something to throw at them.

Haha, remembered a joke. In the Friends sitcom that I normally watch, I remember that there was a lesbian couple, so one of the girls' ex-husband gave them hers and hers towels. Normally its HIS and hers but in that case there's no 'him' so . . . LOL LOL LOL! I laughed like crazy over that. Hehehe.

Ugh. Tomorrow going to watch Wanted. Chris wanted to watch. zzz. Guys show. I dont like those kinda shows... Very loud and bangy and hurty. The latter means people will probably get shot and I hate shows that portray physical pain. I'm a very compassionate person so I'll feel the pain too (sorta). HAHA. Nola nola. But well those scenes do affect me. Once I saw a murder scene on tv and I would remember it vividly in my mind for the next few nights.

But before that gonna watch Dont Mess With The Zohan. I heard its a dreadfully funny and lame show.

Sigh well. My 'only' reason for living is starting to wane. But God's more prominent now. Maybe my focus is starting to change.